On a recent Awkward/Awesome post, someone remarked that it looked like I was having only awesomes that week, which really reminded me how different my life looks on blogland vs. real life. Sure, I had a lot of good moments that week but it was also a particularly rough one.
Some people like their blog to be a diary. I'm going for more of a scrapbook feel. A diary should document both the ups and downs but who pulls out a scrapbook with tear stained tissues taped to the pages and notes you never sent to unrequited loves pressed between the pages? That's not what scrapbooks are usually for.
Don't think I'm criticizing how other people run their blogs. I very much enjoy both types. Personally, I don't like to put the negative up here because for ME, this isn't the best outlet for it. But just because I don't doesn't mean I don't have my share of down-in-the-pits moments.
This summer was particularly demoralizing. I already had some lurking inner-issues I had been in denial about for far too long, as well as just plain ol' hard situations. On top of that I spent over three months working on a project that, for some reason, didn't resonate with me. Not getting satisfaction from my work when I really wanted work to be an escape was the straw that broke the camel's back.
However, the overall experience was really valuable for me because...
1) I learned how to work hard at something I don't enjoy
2) I had to find other outlets for my needs that my graduate school career was no longer fulfilling (I went into turbo crafting mode, spent more time with people and generally had more adventures).
3) And, most important, without really hitting bottom, I would never started dealing with some of the nasty demons I have been carrying around for far too long.
While things are much better now, I still have a lot of growth to go. In a myriad of areas.
One of which is graduate school. I decided to be proactive about it so I'm currently taking a class geared towards helping people figure out how to best utilize grad school for their ultimate career goals.
I've been learning a lot and it's been quite interesting so I wanted to do a little mini-blog series and start some discussions.
Thanks for reading my dissertation.
What about you?
Is your blog more your diary or your scrapbook
or something else?